Anyone with anxiety/derealization/deperson…

Hi Ryan, I am 51. I just started having these De-realization symptoms this week. I have a history of having the Anxiety attacks. Only recently (This Last Week) I've had the De-realization. It's somewhat of a relief to know other people have that. I thought I was totally going off the deep end. I lost my hearing about 3 years ago, and of course with it my job, ETC... Then a little over 1 year ago, I lost my boyfriend whom I lived with to Lung Cancer. Right now I am in a relationship, but it feels unstable. I feel that he is being dishonest with me about how he feels about me. I ume this is what is causing me to feel like I'm going over the edge. I've tried talking to him and he's making me feel like I'm just totally loosing it. I don't know what to say to him to make him understand what I'm feeling. He just grips at me to go to the doctor... I don't want meds.. I want to handle it naurally..Or do I not have a choice? If You have any suggestions, I would appreciate it. Thanks, Mary