Why to i want to crawl into a box and pretend i dont exsist?

Well sweetheart, you are defiantly suffering from depression, and possibly borderline personality disorder. Dont let these terms scare you, all it means is that there is an answer! There is help out there, and it does work! Set up an appointment with your doctor, ask to be referred to a therapist/psychologist, they will give you the names of those in your area, call them and go to an appointment. I promise, when you walk out of there you will realize you aren't BROKEN , you are normal. You just need a little istance in the Serotonin area! :) There are meds available to help you, make sure to take them at the same time everyday. Good luck to you. PS) I KNOW BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE..AND I GOT HELP. Cheers beautiful.